Undersatnding.

Liz:
I find it weird that after all this time, we have such different views about the one thing that probably brought us together in the first place: Music
I'm not gonna say what it is but perhaps its a good thing after all that we both see things the way we do. I mean, they probably wouldn't come up with the music they do now if it hadn't been for these reasons. And then there's the whole sharing of ideas from two different different points of view kinda thing. Maybe thats why Lennon/Mcartney was such a sucess. But I'll probaly leave the whole Lennon/Mcartney thing to Paul/Mirza or Mirza/Paul... we'll leave them to decide on that wont we. some great pairings:
Judy Garland/Mickey Rooney
Fred/Ginger
Katherine Hepburn/Cary Grant
Audrey Hepburn/Givenchy
but that's besides the point
I was infuriated. How in the world could Paul have such... such views that degrade music as a being in itself! This is treason! My, he'd better learn to love music or he'll never know what he's doing in life.
Now I felt this way cause i am in the opinion that if you wanna be an artist, you gotta do what you're doing for the sake of loving it. I guess thats why I'm not as big about must-do-originals as Paul I'm not in it for the creating of something, but rather to just, well have fun in what you do.
I also guess why it felt like I was on familiar ground just crapping around under the bridge singing with a complete stranger, not giving a damn whether people even thought we were good or not. I was happy,because, honestly, I'd rather be there, under some dingy bridge indulging music in all its simplicity with nothing to prove. Than well, just being another face in the crowd.
supporting a lost cause. I've come to the realization that, despite loving to perform, music means so much more when just a few people get together on a lazy sunday afternoon(methaphorically speaking) and make noises and just...have a good time. It brings people together, its heartwarming just to share music with the ones you love. It certainly has more value than performing to a bunch of people who don't even know you. Sometimes I wonder if celebrities are truely happy with what they're doing and if they've lost sight of what they wanted to achieve in the first place. we all support idols who we fictionalize in our minds. The real people behind the glamour is not who we want them to be at all. Idols are... well figments of our imagination
But I've side tracked.
Then I tought about me and my relationship with piano. I think if I were to study the piano just for the love of it, I wouldn't backstabbing myself pushing and pushing to get all thes certs and grades. I'd take my time to learn skills and stuff, and never mind if I'm damn good at playing but I dont have a cert. But its true with my procrastinator personality and that kind of mentality, I'd get nowhere. I'm studying piano because I've got something to prove. It used to be for other people, but now, its more like to myself. That I can actually do it. Hell, I'll prove you wrong and I'm not giving up.
Which doesn't mean I dont have any feelings for the piano other than wanting to prove something.
There! I've solved my problem' by looking at myself I can finally understand why Paul does things the way he does. Why he feels better playing at church. Its not, and at the same time is about performing. Its so intangible and hard to define. Its the feeling you get when you feel you're sharing your love of music to people who actually appreciate with for its heart and soul and not the mind. Its the reason why I love performing.
I know it sounds like I contradict myself. But im not really cause this topic is so subjective. There is no definite. Its the intention of your music. I can't explain it in anyway else right now.
Paul, care to share your views?
Its time to eat cookies!
Liz